Dear ...,

[angarka]

I had enough.

I am going through emotional crisis right now. I'm questioning everything, doubting everything, nothing seems alright anymore. It's like a storm that destroys everything on its way. The only good thing about it is that after the storm there is an absolute peace coming. I can't wait for this peace - because that will be the point when only the things that matter will stay. I am not sure if you will.

When I said that this needs to stop, you did not believe me. Well, I'm afraid I did mean it. I can't do this anymore.
Why is this over? Because I'm tired of pretending that everything is OK when it's really NOT OKEY.
Why this is over? Because I like you and I care.
Why is this over? Because it freaks the shit out of me.
Why is this over? Because I know that I will end up hurt and, guess what? I CANNOT LET THIS HAPPEN. Not again...
Why is this over? Because I can't be the girl that is there for you if you are not there for me.
Why is this over? Because I can't be the girl that is woooo-hooo-ed about. I can't be your trophey, not like that.
Why is this over? Because I can't be your girlfriend part-time. I need you to be there for me every minute of every day.
Why is this over? Because I need someone I can rely on AT ALL TIMES.

Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over? Why is this over?

BECAUSE I AM DONE LYING TO MYSELF. I MUST LEARN TO LET GO AND MOVE ON.